Wandering in the Desert of Anxiety

I think we can all acknowledge that the Israelites were kind of whiners once they got out of Egypt.

I mean, God literally just took them out of slavery for goodness sake. Then, they start complaining about everything it seems like.

He literally took the Red Sea and parted it in two.  He led them by pillars of fire and smoke. And they’re going to stress and complain about every single detail?

I know I wouldn’t…wait…well, maybe I do.  I know God has it under control.  He may not have parted the sea for me and I haven’t seen any pillars of fire lately, but He has proven over and over again that He has a plan for my life.  He has shown me his power.  He has shown me His love.

responsive-not-perfect-part-4-pocket-fuel-daily-devotional-on-psalm-23-6-1So, why do I worry?  Because I think that is really what the Israelites’ complaining was rooted in – fear and anxiety.  Just like them, I know my God is in control.  Worrying is a waste of time.  And, yet, I am as bad as the Israelites wandering in the desert of anxiety.

I just need to remember, My God has got this…just like every other time.

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If I believe…

If I believe then I must trust.

And why should I doubt;

Since he did not spare even his own son but gave him up for us all,

won’t he also give up everything else

Romans 8:30

I’m having some trust issues. I know because I’m uber worried about the future.


I also know that’s pointless. Life is meant to be lived moment to moment, which resonates with my bohemian heart. But my worry prone mind won’t seem to still.

Marriage and children teach you real fast how little you know and how much you don’t control.

i must trustBut I have faith, a hope in a confident future and I wasn’t meant to stay in this season forever.
So I cling to the promise, especially when I have reason to doubt.

And I try to remember to punctuate the surprises with hallelujahs.  After all, His timing is perfect, and He knows more than I do.

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Just Breathe

I am feeling overwhelmed.

Lord, I know you are in control.  You see and manage all the variable if we let you.

It is when we try to take charge and make sense that tension builds, stress rises, and (sometimes unknowingly) we shut you out.

We absorb the space we should be giving You to do Your work in our lives. – instead filling with stress and worry.

I refuse.

d317f12ee48146f03e4d5f8edd19e125For every breath I take, I am consciously breathing in your grace and power as I exhale stress, worry, and my own sad attempts for control.

Breathe in Your power.  Breathe out clutches for control.

I relinquish it all…

…to You

…my Protector

…my Father

…my Savior

I relinquish control to the One who knows and loves me best.

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Don’t Worry, Be Happy

Spiritual well-being, our relationship with God, is like other relationships, skills, hobbies…stagnancy results in decline.  We must make time for practice, reflection, communication.  We must be honest with ourselves.

For God has not given us a spirit of fear with signatureFor me, my work lately (and always) is trust.  Trusting God is a funny thing.  I’ve always trusted that He would be there, trusted that He has a greater plan.  That doesn’t mean I’ve always let go of worry though.

Lately, I have had/am having a lot of high stakes possibilities in my life, both personally and in my family. I’m learning that trusting God means letting go of worry.  He will take care of the details; He always does. I don’t always succeed at letting the worry go completely, but when I do it feels amazing!

So, as a I enter another high stakes situation this morning, I am going to really try to let my trust in God to also carry away my worry.

One day at a time, one situation at a time, one prayer at a time…

Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus.                                                                                                                             Philippians 4:6-7


Mary and Martha

Many of us have probably heard the story of the sisters Mary and Martha.  Jesus goes to their house.  Mary sat and listened, delighted by Jesus’ teaching.  Martha worked hard the whole time to make sure dinner was ready.  Martha became frustrated and asked Jesus to recognize the work she was doing on her own and send Mary to help.  Jesus response was “My dear Martha, you are worried and upset over all these details! There is only one thing worth being concerned about.  Mary has discovered it and it will not be taken away from her.” (Luke 10:41-42)

I get easily caught up in the details.  I recognize the important thing is to learn, hear God, and obey.  However, sometimes the details get in the way.  In my quest to surrender to Him, I get caught up in the where, when, and how.  Instead, I should just rest in the peace of His plan.  God’s got the details.  I just need to respond.

This is still a fine line I am trying to figure out.  I believe God calls for an action filled faith.  So, how do I make sure my action is timed up with His plan?  Where is the middle ground between sitting and waiting for God to drop something in your lap and running to action, unsure yet if it is His plan?

I think you just have to trust that you will know through prayerful reflection. Enjoy Him and follow Him faithfully in daily life and everything else will eventually work out.