He Speaks

“And the dialect of God is the day just as it comes” Ann Voskamphe-speaks

 

I pray a lot more now than I used to. I’m a mom and a wife, on my knees is a way of life: scooping up toys, lifting up babies, cleaning up spills… begging for new mercies and more grace. Desperately seeking wisdom in this journey.

 

God has the ability, but in my experience rarely speaks loudly. His message is powerful and perfect and He can bend the winds of my life, I suppose that’s why He doesn’t shout.

 

He is communicating constantly, it’s just in our amplified neon world it is easy to miss the wind.

 

My God talks in subtleties; in rainy days and perfectly timed peonies, in traffic jams and puppy kisses, His guiding hand a forceful slow down child.

 

He wakes me before dawn to ponder life with him and see the world in the clear dark of dew.

 

Faith, communication, is more than a feeling or a justification of wants and I cant rightly explain it.

 

But He speaks all day and I can only hear when I quiet down, and its worth the slow down.

-J

 

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He Speaks

“And the dialect of God is the day just as it comes” Ann Voskamp

I pray a lot more now than I used to. I’m a mom and a wife, on my knees is a way of life: scooping up toys, lifting up babies, cleaning up spills… begging for new mercies and more grace. Desperately seeking wisdom in this journey.

 

he-speaksGod has the ability but, in my experience, rarely speaks loudly. His message is powerful and perfect and He can bend the winds of my life; I suppose that’s why He doesn’t shout.

 

He is communicating constantly; it’s just in our amplified neon world it is easy to miss the wind.

 

My God talks in subtleties; in rainy days and perfectly timed peonies, in traffic jams and puppy kisses, his guiding hand, a forceful slow down child.

 

He wakes me before dawn to ponder life with Him and see the world in the clear dark of dew.

 

Faith, communication, is more than a feeling or a justification of wants and I can’t rightly explain it.

 

But He speaks all day and I can only hear when I quiet down, and it’s worth the slow down.

-J

Working Wonders

This week I can’t help but  be filled with gratitude, humility, and thanksgiving.

I have this innate desire to want to be independent; I want to know I can make it and do everything on my own.  But I can’t.  I can’t do anything on my own.

My attempts to “do life” are so sub par compared to what God wants and can do in my life. He has the power to transform my life in so many ways that I can’t even see…but sometimes I get a glimpse of how He knows so much better than I.

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That has been this week.  He has worked together things for my good that I didn’t see coming, things that I wasn’t sure I wanted.  He knew better.  He knew how well the puzzle pieces would fit together.  All I had to do was pray fervently, listen carefully, and respond in obedience.  Then, just sit back in awe as He worked His wonders.

“With thanksgiving let me remember, O my God, all your mercies to me and let me confess them to you.  Let my bones be filled with your love.” St. Augustine

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Can You Hear Me Now?

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We always ask ..

God can you hear me?  

God are you listening?

God I’m speaking.

God, I’m asking.

…but where are we?

 

How much time are we spending silent with Him in order to listen to His words upon our hearts – rather than spending all of our time with him speaking and asking.

I listen carefully to what God the Lord is saying…Ps. 85:8a

 

I really don’t like silence.  I like to fill up the silence with music, noise, the quiet hum of voices on the tv that I’m not even listening to. (Okay, we psychoanalyze that all day.)  We need the silence, the intentional quiet, the stillness and space for God to enter.
This requires a very conscious effort for me.  Because even if I turn off all those other things, the voices in my head keep going.  So, I have to practice being still, practice listening.  Because if I’m not paying attention and consciously listening, I won’t hear the words God is speaking to my heart.

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A Voice in the Night

I’ve always been drawn to the story of Samuel.  A boy who heard a voice calling in the night and, after a few times, realized it was God.  His response was perfect and humble.  “Speak, for your servant is listening.” (1 Samuel 3:10)

He didn’t ask questions or favors.  He waited for God.

Samuel dared to believe that what God had to say was far better than anything young Samuel could ask for or imagine.” from Daring Faith devotional by Nicole Reyes

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God please close all the doors except the one that leads me to where you want me to be.

I don’t want to go through a different door that seems right, seems good, or even just acceptable to my limited self and brain.

I want your perfect will.  I want to hear your voice louder than my own.

So, like Samuel, “Speak for your servant is listening.”

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He is the Potter

“yes, a sword will pierce through your own soul also” Luke 2:35

“God’s greatest blessings so often come at the cost of our personal comfort. But the more we listen and follow Him the more He can transform us and those around us so His message of love and salvation are known”

Yup, feeling the pressure. Feeling the discomfort.

God’s themes in my life right now seems to be:

  1. stop planning because as soon as you get a grip I’m going to shake it up (again)
  2. be uncomfortable. Be good and uncomfortable for Me. He is at work and that is never cushy…I know He’s at work, and satan knows it and we are uncomfortable.
  3. It isn’t necessarily about me. I am just his clay, He gets to mold me, make me, and use me however HE sees fit…

And right now He may be using my broken and flawed vessel to pour into others… or maybe he is using difficult others to shine lights through my cracks.

And so I tell myself, or He tells me, “relax child, I may pour you out, but I wont leave you empty.”

he is potterHe will fill me up and overflowing; He will gild my cracks in gold.

“God, the source of hope, will fill you completely with joy and peace because you trust in Him. Then you will overflow with confident hope through the power of the Holy Spirit” Romans 15:13

-J

My New Truth

This truth settled on me this morning.  My new truth, in three poignant points –

  1. God has a plan.87d778d3cd39c10f153170162d5c5747
  2. He will reveal that plan at the right time.
  3. When He reveals it, I will follow.

In the meantime, I will continue to live my life with Christly love and give what I can while preparing myself spiritually, mentally, and physically.  Otherwise,  I will let go of trying to figure it out.

A life of peaceful contentment joined by excited anticipation.

-S