His Piece, His Time

I like puzzles.  Chaos turned into order. Each piece in its spot.

But, have you ever done a puzzle and found a piece that seems like it should fit?  So, you shove and push, maybe manipulate the edges a little to try to make it fit because for some reason you’ve decided it is the one?

a6f91adb68e4a0bcc523c94cc3aa7897I find myself doing this to my life.  Sometimes forgetting that God has the perfect piece He is preparing and holding for the perfect moment.
My job isn’t to try to find something else to fit a spot, but to wait for God to show me that perfect piece at just the right moment and then act in obedience.

I don’t need to try to strong arm things into working that He doesn’t intend for me.  His piece, his plan is so much better than the ways I try to make something work.

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When You Don’t Move Mountains

When You don’t move the mountains I’m needing You to move.  When You don’t part the waters, I wish I could walk through.  When You don’t give the answers as I cry out to You, I will trust.  I will trust.  I will trust in You. – chorus from Lauren Daigle’s “Trust in You”

Trust, although a simple concept, can be a tricky practice.

I am in a season of so many questions and so few answers.  I’ve compared it to juggling so many balls without knowing where they’ll land, but I’ve determined that really isn’t accurate.  I’m a juggler without balls – looking for some balls to juggle.  Some are starting, maybe to materialize, but the picture is still really hazy…and they don’t really look like the ones I was hoping for.

Truth is You know what tomorrow brings…[and] I want what you want Lord and nothing less.

This is my prayer in the darkness of the unknown and the chaos swirling around me…

Lord, help me discern Your perfect will for my next steps.  Close every door except the one You want for me.  Give me patience for Your timing.  And, above all, thank you for Your unending love and grace for my little self.



In Harshness and Discomfort

“This may seem unnecessarily harsh to you and me.  But God is never unnecessarily harsh…Our discomfort is not a reflection on the character of our loving and tender God.”  Whitney Capps in Disease Details from First 5 devotional

God is never unnecessarily harsh.  I’m not sure why this reverberated with me this morning, but it really did.

I think some of it was the “unnecessarily” part.  It’s big and powerful in this season of almost tangible discomfort.

It doesn’t say He won’t/can’t be harsh, but He is always only to the level that is necessary and no further.

I know from earthly experience that tough love is necessary for growth and learning (thanks mom and dad).  So, it only makes sense that my heavenly Father finds it even more necessary at times.

12140686_10108009578103094_4121437424497833696_nIf only I could learn things the first time or the easy way.  But, I’m guessing it is my stubbornness and interfering that often determines the level that is necessary.

So, in this period of uncomfortableness (that sometimes feels like unnecessary harshness), I’m trying to stay focused on the lessons that God is trying to teach me.  Why is this necessary?

While He has already shown me my need for a reminder of humility, I know there are more lessons to come.  I’m confident He will reveal this little by little as my impatient soul learns, yet again, to wait.