“ the hardest things in life give you the most God” Jennie Allen
My life isn’t that hard or extraordinary. It’s actually pretty simple and dare I say (normal.)
I’ve started praying for anything.
Lord, I give you everything; do anything you want.
And somehow I sincerely and hesitantly mean it. Some small answers have been given. Mostly waits and not yets and keep going and keep mothering.
These answers are hard for my mermaid soul, I long to go deeper. Waiting and mothering often don’t feel awe-inspiring or like big, Godly work.
I’m learning Godly work is most often small though. It’s not the numbers reached or biggest impact; God uses small people in ordinary moments.
He says give your lunch, your knapsack of pretzels and pb & j and apple, and HE will make it worthy. He doesn’t say make a banquet feast and display it aesthetically on instagram and watch how many people He touches with it.
Give your meal and he will feed 5,000.
It’s small steps, it’s a willingness to answer those small nudges.
So today, I’m finally making the cookies, for the neighbors. Not because I want to. I find conversations with them borderline painful. The nudge won’t leave though, and it’s a kind one.
And I said I would do anything.