I like to tell myself that I always listen and respond to God’s nudges when they come, but when I fall into the trap of believing that, I’m fooling myself. Ultimately, I am human and thus consistently and constantly fail to fight my inner selfish nature.
Yet, I’m so blessed to have a God that showers me with grace. There are times He lets me fall because He knows thats what I need and times He gives me no other choice, but to follow His will.
In my journey through Genesis, a different part of the story of Sodom and Gomorrah stuck out to me in this lens.
In Genesis 19, angels had told Lot that Sodom and Gomorrah were going to be destroyed. So, he needed to get his wife and daughters and leave immediately.
You know what Lot’s response was?
But he lingered. Gen. 19:16
He literally had angels in front of him giving him directions. And not in a general, you should think about this kind of way, but entire cities are going to be destroyed. He had even them do a miracle by causing blindness not to long before this….and still he lingered!
You know what God’s response was?
…so the men [angels] seized them [Lot and his family] by the hand, the Lord being merciful to him.
God saw his slow, stubbornness and saved him anyways. God had the angels seize him by the hand and lead him out anyways.
Even when we’re slow, reluctant, and stubborn, God shows us mercy and grace. I wish I could say I didn’t, but there are times when God has to kind of shake me and strong arm me into doing what I know He is calling me to do. I wish I could say it’s easy to follow His will when you know what it is, but it isn’t.
I know I consistently fall short of the glory of God, which makes the blessings of His love that much more amazing. How lucky I am to have a Father, serve a God who loves me enough to never give up on me…even when I linger.