Honestly, I’ve been flipping between annoyed and not annoyed with Nameless. This person doesn’t know Christ and there is a real opportunity to share and show God’s love in a daily way.
But then something happens or is said and I find myself annoyed and putting distance (or at least wishing for more distance) between us.
But, then, I read this from my devotion (from My Utmost for His Highest”…
The Lord’s next point is—“Pour yourself out. Don’t testify about how much you love Me and don’t talk about the wonderful revelation you have had, just ‘Feed My sheep.’” Jesus has some extraordinarily peculiar sheep: some that are unkempt and dirty, some that are awkward or pushy, and some that have gone astray! But it is impossible to exhaust God’s love, and it is impossible to exhaust my love if it flows from the Spirit of God within me. The love of God pays no attention to my prejudices caused by my natural individuality. If I love my Lord, I have no business being guided by natural emotions—I have to feed His sheep. We will not be delivered or released from His commission to us. Beware of counterfeiting the love of God by following your own natural human emotions, sympathies, or understandings.
Well that kind of hit me between the eyes and in the gut at the same time.
Sometimes, these people are put in my life for me to see how my eyes are blinded by the wings of my own selfish, very human shortcomings.
Sometimes, the people that push away or are hardest for me in my own “emotions, sympathies, and understanding” are the very people God is calling me to feed…
one [sometimes annoying and humbling and annoyingly humbling] day at a time.