I feel very messy, very feely, very misunderstood and over my head.
Except I’m an excellent swimmer, a proverbial mermaid of deep thoughts and deep life and deep action.
And its al this surface living that is suffocating me.
I’ve been thinking a lot bout Mary and her faith and her deep, painful life. Ive been thinking a lot about Satan and how he takes pleasure in toying with our mermaid minds.
But here’s the thing, us mermaid deep divers, we scare the hell out of him.
We change the game. We fight hard. We give big faith yesses. and sometimes the enemy’s riptide catches us off guard.
He has no choice but to fight hard, to counter attack, lest he lose ground.
“Dear friends, don’t be surprised at the fiery trials you are going through, as if something strange were happening to you… If you are insulted because you bear the name of Christ, you will be blessed, for the glorious Spirit of God rests upon you… it is no shame to suffer for being a Christian. Praise God for the privilege of being called by his name!” 1 Peter 4:12,14,16
and yes, I’m sitting here feeling all weighty on the surface, longing to be understood, to have a diving partner, or at least breathe in the salty sea again.
This I know, God’s on the move or it wouldn’t be this hard.